XangaRelic Gone Wild ⏳

I'm trying so hard to breathe. Stay here now. I keep distractions near, candles glow all day. Spirits are being conjured, and the air is heavy with incense and perfumes. Dark, rich, deep. Just as I ache.

This room is painted like the ocean and it's pounding me. I see all of the swirls I put here and there, dreaming of playing with your hair, wading to shore. Dancing. Laughing. Free.   We played all day. Naked and young.

I laughed alone too.   So many times.   Playing Hide and Seek with ghosts and characters behind the scenes. No one did see. No one but Me and them. Only pretend.

No one to help me.

Was that what it was for? Self. So I would not be afraid to laugh by myself, to feel love by myself, to be alone?   I know it too well. Yes, it will be easier to remember magical times I spent alone, not missing the way it was when you weren't here. How many times I wished you were here, or there, and I dreamed and smiled, as I sang love songs to the wind. I'll have even more now. But I'll always carry my candles with me.  I'll leave a trail of light. I Promise. No matter if the wind refuses to keep them lit, I'll find a way. I always do. Because I want you to find me. I want you to find me when I am alone and I really shouldn't be.   I want you to find me. Hold me. Touch me. Love me. I need you to find me. Please.

Promise me.

I'll leave a trail of lights for you, just follow the glow. Follow the glow baby, follow the glow. I'll sing softly, and the closer you come, the sweeter the sound will be. Follow me baby ......I'm a cloud...............rain...............sea.........tree............nothing more.......twinkly now.......then fading away .