March 27, 2002

• Life is starting to be rosey again.  Sometimes I feel like the luckiest girl in the World. I DO.

  
  

  My replacement started on Monday.  He is slick and catching on quick, I guess I am not that mission critical after all.  I have spoke with the boss about my job there and what I want and need.  He does not want me to leave, and I do not necessarily want to leave, I make good money there.  However, I do not need to work full-time and I will not do that anymore, at least as long as I can afford not to.  I will be staying on at my job as a part-time person instead.  I will be taking a leave of absence next month though, and plan to be gone at least one month.  I am filled with giddy anticipation with my upcoming adventure.

  
  

  I am probably going to buy a new-used car too.  The Big Guy was going to let me use his truck.  It's a beautiful truck with an extended cab and a V8, but it gets like 10 miles to the gallon, not to mention it is HUGE.  I would rather not drive it.  I found a wonderful, used Subaru Outback for sale, and I can afford it with a little financial juggling.  It's a beautiful car and perfect for the kind of lifestyle I like to live.  Camping on the fly, sleeping in the back, PUP close at hand.

  
  

  *FREEDOM*

  
  

  I am planning to get a puppy this summer too.  Probably another lab.  I love puppies.  I hope Mombo is not jealous of my love for another PUP.  Mombo will always be my number one, ALWAYS.  He was my very first dog, and he has turned out to be quite the man.  I love that PUP of mine.  He has given me so much courage in life.   He has been there for me through all of the sad/mad crap and always enjoys my hugs.

  
  

  I feel like the luckiest girl in the World sometimes.

  
  

  I am finding so much Peace with Peter's death.  It is as though his Spirit has filled me and directed me to a safe place.  I can think back now and smile.  His Life meant so much to me and my journey.  I feel him so close and I speak with him all the time, and he speaks to me.  I know my place in this World and I really have a lot of work to do, but I am happy to take on the challenge.  I would never have made it this far in Life without the Love I have for Peter.  He taught me so many things.

  
  

  LOVELAND is still my plan.  LOVELAND.  Yes, Peter was the reason and the inspiration behind my LOVELAND plans.  I always wanted him in my Life, no matter what.  A community of Love and Healing was the way to our Forever and it still is.  I plan to keep my vision and OUR Dream alive.  It's a GOOD plan.

  
  

  I have a friend moving in next weekend.  A playmate that I truly adore.  We are both creative BEings that don't really blend well in this WalMart driven society.  He is my friend, I have no need for a serious lover in my life at this time.  I look forward to his company though, and of course I do have visions of a scantily clad, sweaty body moving brush for me.  hehe

  
  

  *some things will never change*

  
  

  Franny got his new leg yesterday.  He is happy as a lark.  His health is much improved too and he is starting to act like his old self again.  This makes me so glad, I was truly afraid he was not going to get back into the swing.  He is slow coming but that man is a fighter and will not allow himself to stay down.   I feel truly blessed to have such a wonderful man in my life.  Our time together has been magic and there is still so much more to come.  Everyone should have an Uncle Franny in their life.

  
  

  *I feel so Blessed.*

  
  

  Thank YOU and BE WELL.

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