December 24, 2002

• Crazy busy, busy and crazy....Christmas time is here.  Happy, Happy, JOY, JOY!

  
  

  My Xanga Anniversary was yesterday too.....my how far I have come!

  
  

  I have over 30 guests coming to my home tomorrow, it's going to be a bit crazy here but it will be fun.  I so love to throw a party!  The only thing is that there is no snow on the ground and I really wish there was.....makes the cold kind of bearable anyway.

  
  

  I have a new table coming my way for Christmas, although I think it will be well after the holidays before it arrives.  A drawing table for my very own creative area, which I so desperately need.  I had my own little creative corner here in the house but Joey invaded my space with the pc.  I didn't want to work or play with a hovering roommate so.....I abandoned mySELF for other things.  I completely surrendered the creative corner the other day and gave Joey all rights to this area of the house....it was not an easy thing to do, but this is the season....besides, I have a new area set up just for me, and I can't wait to move in!  I have a big picture window in front, and the bathroom door to my side.....a bookcase to the right and plenty of light for painting.  Ooooh, it's the original spot of dreams, and I am excited again!

  
  

  Ummmm......I haven't moved my head there yet though, and for crying out loud it's just a small change but for me, and my need for aloneness, it is everything!

  
  

  My creativity has not left though, I have been getting back into making hanging mobiles and the like.  I made a couple of really cool one's for the holidays and intend to make a real special one for Pete's Mum, and send it to her.  I find making mobiles, kinetic and the like, to be relaxing and challenging, which is a good thing for me.  Trying to make everything balance and move and be visually appealing too.  Not an easy thing to do, but I learn so much along the way......and it might just be my calling.

  
  

  I need a calling too......a job calling!  I am still gainfully unemployed.  I have had a few job possibilities come my way but nothing that truly fit or worked out for me.  I'm confident that the right job is coming my way so until then, I continue to work a few days a week at the cheese factory.  Not so bad and time goes quick.....robot work that it is.

  
  

  Magic and twinkly happiness.  Miracles and tears.  Tears from music and memories.  It hurts inside when it is beautiful, always has.  It's a beautiful hurt and I welcome it anytime, but the tears.....sometimes they sting.  I close my eyes and let them fall.  I fill my eyes with tears and look at the lights and angels come to me.....I see them so clear and plain, and then I am whole again.

  
  

  Lady died last week.  Franny took it kind of tough, but he will be ok.  We hugged and remembered the day I brought him the wimpy, pissy smelling dog I rescued from a certain demise.  She had a good, full life and made an eternal friend.  May she rest in peace.

  
  

  Enough chatter for now, I have a few dishes to create.  I was thinking of making tofu bbq non-meatballs for tomorrow, along with a few other healthy dishes.  I wonder if they will be a hit, or even tasted for that matter.   Hmmmm.... it's a lot of work to prepare just to see, but hey, that's me......I always go the extra mile, ALWAYS!

  
  

  Happy Holidays to you and yours.  Think HAPPY thoughts and BE!

  
  

  BE WELL.

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