January 21, 2003

  • I never meant it to feel like that
    didn't want the pain.
    Yet I go back there again and again
    and again.
    No excuse, no reason, just lost
    and looking in at something I can't have.
    Because I don't know what it is.

     

    It's coming back to me now
    and once it's here, I'll never
    let it go away.
    I'm sorry for the anger
    the tongue I couldn't control.
    It wasn't meant to be so bold,
    so cold, so unforgiving and dead.

     

    It's my head, not my heart.
    I won't let that go too.
    But it's coming back to me now
    somehow, someway.
    I'm less lonely today
    as I melt into blue.
    And thank you for all of that
    and for all of this.

     

    Someday it just might make sense.

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What?

I AM still paranoid,
though reasons changed.
I'm paranoid that they'll figure out the language
and patterns of
me,
and I'll forget to rea
r r
ange.

Then I'll just be textbook.