October 19, 2003
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I dreamed of Bill again last night. I hardly remember the dream, other than to know he was sitting in a chair and I served him a beverage. I was proud that he was my brother. The rest of the dream has faded away, but I do know he was there to stay. I haven't dreamt of Bill in years and just lately, I have had two dreams that he was in. I think he is trying to let me know he cares and he believes in me. I seldom hear that from anyone, and this weekend I decided I have had enough of the shit and yelled my fucking ass off. I didn't feel better, but I DID set some boundaries.
It's time for me to give a shit less about what others think is best or good or right for me. I must follow the Energy that the Universe is sending me. I must take risks and listen to all the clues. I do not need input from those who can't comprehend something they cannot see or touch, and I simply haven't the patience to explain it so they can understand.
I'm feeling less bitter, though my words may not express that. I really AM, and I WILL set out to do what the Universe asks me. I cannot deny my strengths.
I AM POWERFUL! Never forget it!
Oh, I did also meet with an old classlmate this week, Craig. We haven't seen each other in almost 20 years. It was great visiting with him and his daughter, they came to my house and we played in the tree fort, did mehndi and ate quiche. Craig and I may work together and plan a class reunion. Can you believe my graduating class has NEVER had a class reunion? I think it's about time we did.......besides, it will give me a reason to get into great shape! bah hah
BE WELL.
