February 11, 2004

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    So today I am feeling better than I have in weeks, although.....I am not satisfied with what I have done with my body or my hair, but that is another blog.


    Tonight I must blog about a troubling encounter that I had.


    I stopped to get gas.  A local place that I frequent, they usually have the cheapest gas, and the cheapest alcohol.  Not to mention, these peeps are from India and I often pick their brains on mehndi and the like. 


    Anyway, I stopped to get gas and as I'm standing outside waiting for my petro tank to fill, out walks this "white trash woman," whom looks like she had already downed a 12 pack.  She came out of the store and walked directly up to me, like she knows me.  She then looks me in the face and exclaims, quite loudly, "Those niggers are rippin' off that old woman blind!" and then walks away.


    I look inside the store and see 4 black men huddled around the liquor aisle and assumed she meant that those men were stealing.


    That's the whole story.  I'm sorry but I found it rather disturbing.  I should also mention that the "old lady" she was referring to has often undercharged or neglected to charge me for things so, perhaps she was being ripped off, but I wasn't sure what to do.  When I went inside and paid I glanced at the 4 men.  I didn't see them rip anything off, but I did notice a camera in the corner.  I'm sure if they did steal anything it was caught on tape, and someday, when they watch the tape, they will see where all the missing inventory went.


    I feel sorry for that "white trash woman," if anything I should have said something to her but I was so taken aback by her outburst that I was left speechless.

What?

I AM still paranoid,
though reasons changed.
I'm paranoid that they'll figure out the language
and patterns of
me,
and I'll forget to rea
r r
ange.

Then I'll just be textbook.