February 26, 2006

• I have about 100 zillion blogworthy things to speak of but only time for a few. 

  
  

  Firstly, my nephew Devin lost his fight against cancer on Friday.  It happened so quick.  He told his Mom he was getting on the airplane to heaven right before he left.  My heart is heavy for his Mom and family.  I am grateful that I did not know Devin very well, he was a very quiet, reserved boy and kind of avoided my loud, obnoxious ways like the plague.  After spending about 1 intense week at their house during his illness they kind of pulled away from me and JoAnn, Devin's Mom, told me that they needed to go through this alone.  It took a few days for that to sink in but then I was so grateful I did not have to be in that sorrow day in and day out.  It's a horrible place to BE and is very hard on me spiritually. 

  
  

  Devin was a good boy.  He loved his Mother very much.  He enjoyed fishing, science and hanging out with his friends.  He faced death with grace and humility.  I'm learning a lot about Life from a little boy I barely knew.  He is pure love and energy now.  I hope I can help his Mother in any way possible.  I cannot imagine her pain.

  
  

  On to happier news.......

  
  

  I DO NOT HAVE AIDS!  Woo Hoo!  In fact my T-cell count went up to 400 and my viral load (VL) is less than half of what it was last visit.  Now I know you are not supposed to let those numbers rule your mind but in this case I think it is a good thing.  Suddenly I feel recharged and strong.  Ready to step it up a notch and get really healthy.  Empowered.  I was so excited I told the doctor I was going to get so enlightened that one of these days I will just be cured.  He kind of smiled at me and said that was impossible although......although he said, there was 1 well documented case of a cure in a man in the UK with no plausible explanation as to how this man was cured.  I told him then it is not impossible and all one needs to do is harness the powers of their mind and anything is possible.  He smiled and gave me a wink.  I swooned.  I kind of have a school girl crush on him but don't say anything.

  
  

  It's amazing the power one can have over their mind and body with thoughts.  It's like a million lightbulbs are going off in my head and things are so clear, though I could never articulate what it is I see or feel or know.  I can only live by example. 

  
  

  I watched "What the Bleep Do We Know?" again this week and plan to watch it again and again because every time I do another ahha moment is born.  It's a good thing I bought the DVD so I can continue this quest without rental fees!  There are books I should reread too, they are speaking to me.  A million miles a second in every way possible and all at once.

  
  

  I made a play date last night with my friends Carlos and Elvira and their kids.  We all played King of the Mountain and it was a blast!  So much fun to see 4 adults outside, bundled up and rolling down the snow hills laughing.  I nagged for 2 weeks for my peeps to get together with me to play and finally, I had it in concrete last night.  I heard a lot of grumbling and "you're crazy" smack but you know what?  After we were done playing and huffing and puffing my peeps all agreed that a more fun time has not been had for years!  I knew that would be the case, after all I DO KNOW how to have a super fun time doing things peeps wouldn't normally do.  I have my peeps commited to an annual event now.  Actually, I should be calling "my peeps" my loyal subjects because I AM THE SNOW MOUNTAIN KING, QUEEN, & RULER of all the lands!  Want to kiss my muscles?

  
  

  I dedicate last nights fun and frolic to Devin.

  
  

  BE WELL. 

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