April 5, 2008

• Sick & Tired

  But I don't look sick do I?

  

  I AM sick though and miserably so... that picture was taken yesterday, I was sick then too.  I felt a smidge better yesterday though, but putting lipstick on and fixing my hair always helps, even if it is only an illusion.  I always fix myself up nice when I visit my HIV doc, he's such a little hottie and I AM a scandalous flirt. 

  I Find it difficult to stay up very long and working on the computer is hard on my eyes and brain.  Turns out I have viral meningitis so...at least I AM not imagining my aches and pains and goofy, dizzy, foggy brain.  Did I mention I had to have a spinal tap last week to rule out meningitis?  Doc was worried that I had fungal meningitis, lucky for me it's only viral.  I had serious problems after my spinal tap and had to go to the hospital twice for blood patches in my spine.  I had the most horrible headaches imaginable while sitting or standing following the spinal tap.  I wasn't in a good place, but in a way I'm glad they found something, hate to think I went through that horror for nothing.

  The only way to monitor meningitis is with spinal fluid but there is no fucking way I will go through that again.  If I knew I didn't have to worry about the after effects, then it would not be so bad, but that just will not be true.  I always have to be a special case don't I?

  I have my prescription for Atripla now too, so I'll probably start taking HIV meds this weekend too.  Joy.

  I hope you all have a nice weekend, I'll struggle to do the same.  Oh, I
  have to bury my dog this weekend too.  I'm almost fucking sad and pathetic enough to inspire
  a country western song...almost.

  BE WELL.

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