May 6, 2010

• yah mon

  I am feeling like I ought to be blogging again so some of these words and rhymes and racing things can get out of my head. I find myself typing a LOT of things and then just deleting, feels good just to get that crap out sometimes you know?

  I have my songs too, that I sing on a whim and screechingly high and out of tune. My pups love those songs, not so sure about the humans though, should they happen to be about when the tune hits me. Most have probably learned to ignore me, tune me out, but sometimes they listen because they will give me that look or tell me "JoAnn that is not very nice" yah I know, but what can you do when you have that mean stuff in you? Find a way to let it go, that is about all I KNOW!

  It is not a disease that will kill me but rather diseased thoughts and feelings and so.... need to keep that stuff in check and learn a different way to flow. My monkey Ras Tafari is teaching me a LOT about that, cuz I always have treated him as an "IDEAL" and one without opinions, cares or woes and when he stumbles upon something not to his liking, he just moves on and lets it go. This is NOT EASY cuz he is ME and well, my mouth can do some flapping and my fingers can really tap sometimes and I will REACT.... not often, but I have it in me.

  Anyhoo.... just typing up some stuff now after I processed a lot of words, thoughts, plans, decisions, talks and ummmm then I forget what I was about to type or say. ADD, yes my attention is in constant need of energy, reminders, talking out loud, stay on track JoAnn don't get side-tracked, pay attention, finish one thing first, do not go off on a tangent, set the timer, write a note, say it out loud.

  YUP! Maybe they got some drugs for this ADD thing but you know I am pretty sure I can control it now that I realize how much of an issue it really is and how I do not get shit done cuz I bounce, bounce, bounce about and really, it isn't as cute as I thought it was.

  Anyhoo.... just some blah blah blah stuff that I will finish now cuz I am mid project in another screen.

  Meow. Meow.

  P.S. I really have no time to come to Xanga to read much at all but it's my blog so I can just come here to write, like I used to do when I thought nobody was watching or knew who I was and Borderline left me in tears. =)

  BE WELL.

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