I can barely RE-member what it was like to BE me a couple of years ago. It's like a far away dream that doesn't really feel like it BElongs to me, not on this plane of consciousness anyway. I have Evolved.
Perhaps you wouldn't know it, BEcause I did work hard to hide it and deny it, which is easier to do on the Internet than in the flesh. In fact, it is impossible to hide in person so, I spent a lot of time locked in hell. I kept myself hidden BEhind closed doors and refused to even pick up the phone or answer the door. I call these the Lost Years. The years when I was either drunk, hungover or obsessively thinking about when I could drink again. I was so ashamed. Hopeless.
I have grown up with alcoholism my entire life. My parents are alcoholics, their parents... my youngest brother died in a drunk driving accident and I lost myself into the swirling abyss of hell know as alcoholism. The pain of alcoholism was immense in my family and enormous in the lives of my friends and their struggles with alcohol. Alcohol has robbed so much from our lives.
I truly just wanted to die during the last few months of my addiction. I tried everything to quit drinking but nothing would quell that insatiable craving in me. AA was not my cup of tea and counseling and abstinence never did work to remove my craving. I could hardly abstain for one week, BEfore I was back drinking myself into oblivion. I did pray. I prayed often that GOD would remove my craving for alcohol BEcause then I knew I would BE able to handle my lot in life.
GOD answered my prayers when he made me aware of Rhonda Lenair. Rhonda was the answer to my prayer and Life has just been one BEautiful thing after another since I saw her. Not once, in the two years since I saw Rhonda Lenair, have I craved alcohol or wanted to drink. Drinking alcohol makes absolutely no sense in my head anymore. My desire was completely removed simply by letting Rhonda place her hands on my head. She told me things about myself that she could not possibly know, she never asked me any questions about anything. The things Rhonda spoke of were things I vaguely remember as bringing Joy to me, or experiences I had that connected me to other levels of consciousness, very personal experiences. I struggle to not call this a miracle, for as Rhonda states, "there are no miracles in a realm of infinitie possibilities." Even today, as I type this, I strive to understand how this is possible. My quest to understand Rhonda's work has led me into many interesting readings, teachings thoughts and sciences. Teachings that I understand in a way that I cannot verbalize. I understand on a completely different level and have no way to articulate this understanding other than to twinkle and feel supported by having this deep knowing in me. To feel connected.
If you need visual proof of my evolution here is a side by side of my driver's license. The first picture was taken one month after seeing Rhonda for alcoholism, which BElieve it or not, was an improvement from a couple of months earlier.
I realize today that I AM known and Loved by the Universe and that my soul purpose is to BE HAPPY!
I AM.
I could never thank the person that wrote the article about Rhonda Lenair, that my husband read and gave to me to read, enough. My way of thanking GOD for the gift of Rhonda Lenair is to help spread the word of her work and to support her in all that she does. Rhonda is like nobody I have ever met BEfore. She is the most humble, gentle, loving person I have ever known and she has a very visible glow around her. She works and speaks from a dimension that I do not understand, but my soul does and that is all that matters. One day Rhonda's work will BE commonplace, I AM convinced of that. Rhonda states that this force she works in is available to all of us and is infinite in it's power. I BElieve.
Today I AM not Powerless over alcohol, I AM EMPOWERED. I have absolutely NO FEAR of ever drinking alcohol again. I wish the same freedom for all who suffer from the ravages of alcoholism. If you or someone you love is suffering with alcoholism, There is HOPE! Freedom without shame, guilt or pain.
JOY!
BE WELL. 
