February 20, 2001
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Dave came over tonight. I did not expect him here and really wanted to be alone and read. It turned out to be a worthwhile visit for both of us, despite my wanting to be alone.
I told David about Brandon and my sexual experience with him tonight. I told him I found beauty in the experience and that I am happy it happened, and that the Universe is a better place because of it. Dave had no problem with my experience and asked me a lot of questions. One question he could not stop asking was "when?"
I knew the answer to the "when" would bother him more than anything so I tried to avoid it or put it into perspective. To no avail....Dave still needed to have a time reference for it.
I told him.
He freaked.
We talked. We were honest. We re-membered. We loved. We forgave. We learned. We shared. We became closer.
I am not sure what impact all of this new energy and sharing and openness will have on us, but I do know it can only be good.
I LOVE LIFE!
I LOVE ME!
I LOVE!
I am throwing the Judgement card in the air as a symbol of the coming together of a consciousness and the end of a sanctimonious facade. YEEHAW!
